I think one of the most challenging parts of Christianity is the fact that I don’t have all the answers, yet. So it’s about praying for patience, patience being something I am not particularly good at. During this time of waiting and praying, which is what Advent is all about, perhaps its time to be patient with ourselves, not force advent to be over so we can celebrate Christmas.
Jesus came as a babe, the Word made Flesh, and experienced what we go through with all its joys and pain. This will as you ponder it will richly bless you if you take time to notice, to be aware of your surroundings and your mind. Give Advent a go, you might find those answers come to you during a regular practice of meditation on Advent.